An ‘Intersex’ Christian speaks of her experience


On Sunday, August 5, Sara Gillingham, an intersex Christian, came to talk to us at St Mark’s in one of the first sermons in our inclusion series this month.

She spoke movingly on her experience of being intersex in the House of God. This is what she said:

Thank you so much for inviting me here today just to share some of my experience of Church as someone who is born intersex. Firstly, I want to share a bit of my own story, before I reflect on Church and faith.

Just to explain what ‘intersex’ is, as it is often confused with LGBT, particularly Transgender. “Intersex” refers to people who are born with any of a range of biological sex characteristics that may not fit typical notions about male or female bodies. Variations may be in their chromosomes, genitals, or internal organs like testes or ovaries.

About 1.7% of the population is born intersex, across a very wide spectrum. Much of the problem is that there is very little awareness about ‘intersex’, and the secrecy surrounding us is often shaming and stigmatising. Often children are subject to surgeries that are not medically necessary, simply to alter their bodies to fit others expectations. It may be that intersex children, like other children, also have medical conditions that do need treatment, so it is important we differentiate between the two. We now know from research how harmful these non-medically necessary surgeries are to children’s physical and mental health.

I am a survivor of non-consensual surgeries. I was of an age that I remember some of the surgeries and the times when I was recorded or examined in front of medical students. The nature of these surgeries was kept secret from me by doctors and family, despite my asking about them on numerous occasions throughout adulthood. It was only seven years ago that I retrieved my medical records, which explained the secrecy. I have grown-up with the knowledge of knowing that I was somehow different, often with a sense of stigma as the secrecy surrounding me suggested I was somehow shameful.

It is my faith that has helped me endure those ‘dark days’, by showing there is a light out in the darkness. I often drew upon scripture such as :

2 Corinthians 4:8-9

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 

Many Christians born with Intersex traits find solace in the stories about eunuchs, for instance the baptism of the Ethiopian eunuch in Acts 8 : 26-40 where God acts to include those previously excluded.

Also they may emphasis in Genesis 1:27 that “God created human beings in his own image…male AND female he created them.

I personally do not feel the need to identify myself so specifically in biblical scripture, as I feel like everyone else I was created in the image of God. I do frequently turn to Psalm 139 which I find very affirming :

“You it was who fashioned my inward parts….You know me through and through, my body was no mystery to you, when I was formed in secret, woven in the depths of the earth’.

However, I know there are others in the Church that have a very different biblical interpretation and who call upon scripture to enforce their binary understanding, and label such people as myself as having ‘a disorder’. This is label that leads to the stigmatisation and non-consensual surgeries I have spoken about. I have also been labelled as being the embodiment of sin, and have been told by Christians to my face and in social media just in this last month alone, as being possessed by Satan with calls to ‘repent’.

I was invited to share my story in the Regional Shared Conversations on Human Sexuality over two years ago, where many were challenged by my physical presence. I had one member of clergy, who led a large team in his own parish, avoid eye-contact and actively avoided just me when sharing the peace at communion. I had people after hearing my story start to pray uninvited, that I be cured. Some embarrassment followed when I asked what being ‘healed’ may look like. It is this hurtful response that brings me in to fellowship with many people who have physical and mental health challenges.

The belief that is core to my faith is that Christ healed by helping people escape discrimination by restoring them as equal members of the community, no longer being marked as ‘IMPURE’.

So Church can be an extremely painful place for me. But I feel called by “God” to try and make use of my pain, and for this reason I am now on Deanery and Diocesan Synods. It is something I find difficult to do, but also at times hugely rewarding and uplifting as people who have remained silent for some many years also find the courage to speak out.

I am currently working with bishops as they prepare a new episcopal  teaching document and pastoral guidance on human sexuality, which will also include ‘intersex’. This again is a bruising experience at present, but I hope greater understanding will reap fruit in the future.

Church can also be a very healing place, and it is important to me and my well being. My own church community at Holy Trinity in Guildford has become my family, and has enabled me to flourish. It is my faith and my church that have given me the courage to find my voice, and put my experiences to good use.

Also being invited today, to one of an increasing number of safe and affirming churches, is both moving and joyous. Most of all we must not lose sight of this, as for many this is what they understand as Church.

So thank you.


Sara Gillingham

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Living in a world a real people, one comes across those who are intrinsically different from one’s self – in the area of gender and/or sexual orientation. In speaking here of her own experience as an ‘intersex’ person, Sara Gillingham is able to describe her own personal situation from the point of view of being a committed Christian. This is a part of her testimony:

“Many Christians born with Intersex traits find solace in the stories about eunuchs, for instance the baptism of the Ethiopian eunuch in Acts 8 : 26-40 where God acts to include those previously excluded.”

Jesus, also, spoke of eunuchs (people unable or unwilling to participate in the binary sexual activity of procreation) in Matthew 9:12, where He aid this: “For there are eunuchs who have been so from birth, and there are eunuchs who have been made eunuchs by men, and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven”.

In the context of Jesus’ homily on the state of binary marriage, he took care to explain that not all human beings were either equipped or disposed to produce children within the normal situation of a heterosexual marriage. When one examines the categories of eunuch that Jesus mentioned, it is relatively easy to discern what make these three categories of eunuch so different.

The third type of eunuch was akin to Jesus himself – those who choose to be so ‘for the sake of the Kingdom of God’, who live a celibate life – nuns, monks and celibate clergy or consecrated virgins; in order to focus on glorifying God.

The second type of eunuch – who are made so by men – are akin to the Ethiopian eunuch in the story of Acts 8 and also those whose masculinity has been excised (castrati) for the purpose of producing the ethereal voice in an adult male. (Not all male altos are eunuchs, techniques having been utilised today which obtain similar results without physical castration).

The first type of eunuch can cover anyone whose innate sexual orientation or biological generation has been so ordered in their mother’s womb that they are unable (in most cases, indisposed) for the purpose of procreation.

Sara Gillingham, along with at least one per cent of all human beings are born with what has now been described as ‘gender dysphoria’ – a state where the sex or gender of the baby is not clearly distinguished. This situation is so little talked about that such people are often thought of as ‘freaks of nature’, and therefore hardly even fully human.

Sara’s experience of multiple surgeries – to align her with the supposedly required ‘normality’ of being either explicitly male or female – can be considered as deeply intrusive as chemical, surgical, or psychological treatment that seeks to ‘convert’ innately homosexual persons to become heterosexual. This latter process has now been condemned by clinical psychologists –  and parts of the Church (including the Church of England) – as being unethical and no longer sustainable.

It is people in the Church like Sara, and others who are ‘differently-ordered’ in their innate gender-sexuality, who have much to teach us all about the reality of their lives as believing Christians, whose love of God and other people is no different from the majority of people who belong to the more prevalent gender-sexuality category of being human, for whom marriage and procreation are their instinctive way of life.

Father Ron Smith, Christchurch, New Zealand

About kiwianglo

Retired Anglican priest, living in Christchurch, New Zealand. Ardent supporter of LGBT Community, and blogger on 'Thinking Anglicans UK' site. Theology: liberal, Anglo-Catholic & traditional. regarding each person as a unique expression of Christ, and therefore lovable.
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1 Response to An ‘Intersex’ Christian speaks of her experience

  1. Carole says:

    Gender dysphasia is NOT the same as being intersex. DSDs (differences od sexual development) is the correct and appropriate term, and has nothing to do with gender dysphoria, which is when one’s gender identity and phenotype do not match, or how society perceives them does not match their own identity. Those who have a DSD (particularly those who are butchered and brutalized as infants with unnecessary surgeries) can experience gender dysphoria, just as those without DSDs can, but they are in no way the same thing. Please correct this. It is damaging and harmful.

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